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19 March 2008 @ 10:28 pm
No doctor plx!! DX  

Was some time since I was here now o.O Looking for a job and taking care of the house seems to eat all of my time >__>;

Today I'm really worried... it seems like I will have to go to the doctor and get myself checked. I've been trying to avoid it for months, but now I can't any longer. It seems like I might have a bleeding in my stomach or some other shit inside of me and they say I really need to get it checked since it has been going on for so long and because it's so much. They say it can be a rare case of cancer, but that I shouldn't think the worst >_<;; That's fucking easy to say >__>; I DON'T want it, but I guess there's no escaping it >__>; *sigh*

On another note though - I had a 'lan' last weekend with some friends and it was SO much fun! We played a lot of games and even though I haven't played Tekken 5 that much (more into Soul Calibur) I actually kicked David's butt in it a couple of times! And that's big since he's like... ZE ULTIMATE gamer when it comes to shooter and fighter games! I was so proud! 8D *waves to wifey*

And my ZackxCloud fandom has come at me like a crazy wave! XD I have always loved that pairing, but nowadays they're like, the only thing in my life at times XD Don't know if wifey Yami knows I like the FF guys together, but hopefully she won't be 'damaged' by it XD *playfully pokes wife* XD Yosh for ZackxCloud, I really can't stop writing on my vampire story with them, it's like I'm possessed! XD LOL

I've been searching for a job like crazy, writing really enthusiastic letters and CV's and shit, but still no reply. I don't know what I do wrong, but I know I'm getting tired of it... >__>; I need money for my COSPLAYS and GAMES for fucks sake >__<!

Because of no work or school, I'm getting into a serious depression again, which seems to happen a lot lately... I need to distract myself, but it's really hard to do so with like....no life atm >__>;

And I need to look for a wedding present for Yami-chan! o.o *has no idea what to buy* Bwahaha, but something I should be able to find ;D

And I miss Shu-chan ;__; Germany is NOT close D: But as long as she's happy that's all that really matters *huggles Shu-chan* Your girlfriend is one lucky girl, she now has a star under the same roof ;D

Current Location: fanfiction net
Current Mood: draineddrained
Current Music: I'm Sorry - Everygrey
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Lea: Gackt Ice-Cream Denieddemonrose88 on March 20th, 2008 02:55 am (UTC)
I nose >_<; I've been seriously denying it for a few months now, since I just HATE doctors >.< But yeah, really no way around it now ^^; XD When I called they said it's hard to tell where it comes from, but that bleeding is never really good. I was like, screaming at her to tell me something else lol I just hope I won't kill the poor doctor who has to check me, I feel seriously sorry for him/her ^^; XD I'll have to watch some DBSK shows before I go so I won't be so.... hostile and rude towards the doctor XD

And your icon - SO MUCH LUV!! <333
nangilima ♠: → miyavi [up here]shatterlights on March 20th, 2008 07:24 pm (UTC)
o___o;; *CLINGS* buuuut ryu-chan T___T GO SEE THE DOCTOR. RIGHT NOOOW. now. you worry me ><
i hope it goes well and that they can help you ne .__. sorry i cant be there for you. ♥

it is depressing to work hard like that but gain nothing.. still, i think it would be good if you went to talk to them peoples at arbetsförmedlingen so that they could help you. its really hard on your own.. it doesnt matter how pretty letters you write or how many times you send them in, it sucks but it takes more. it always takes more, just a little bit more. but it'll be okay <3 i have faith in jooo! det vet du. <33 alltid alltid.

vi kan ju skajjpa [skype] nån gång om du vill :3 helt graaatis. och yay. saranghaeyo. !!

Yoru_no_Neko: ChainedReitayoru_no_neko on March 21st, 2008 12:56 pm (UTC)

Just so you know...=P

(And I can drive you now, with mom's car and all that ^_^)
My Obsession, My Love, My  YunJaemoon1084 on March 27th, 2008 06:48 am (UTC)
omgosh you should have checked yourself out long time ago. i hope its nothing seriously. please take care of yourself and i hope you get better
Lea: DBSK colordemonrose88 on April 18th, 2008 12:35 am (UTC)
I know ^^; But I just hate doctors X'D
But thank you for caring and being supportive *huggles* Hope everything is alright with you! And your icon is SO MUCH LOVE! <33
♔ O°o•Yami•o°O ♔: YamiBakuraCockyami_no_cosmos on April 7th, 2008 11:44 am (UTC)
What are you telling me? That my wife is sick? 0.o Don't worry honey I bet it's nothing serious the doctors just love to scare you up real good. They did that to me too when I had fever for a week and stomage was all messy. They said it could be cancer and then I went into the Karolinska Sjukhuset it was only a infection in my body.
*cuddles wife* I bet it's nothing but If you need some comfort you know you can call me ANYTIME okay?
Just give me a call if you feel sad! <3

Baha Zack and Cloud? To be honest I have never been so much into FF Yaoi that much. But ZackXCloud is le HOTNESS! Yum Yum! :3

Get better now wife! *throws MP/HP potions*
Lea: Nerodemonrose88 on April 18th, 2008 12:39 am (UTC)
Haha, yeah, they sure do ^^; XD *pokes them* I bet they just liiiiike making people all angsty XD I still haven't gone there yet, but yeah, I'll try thinking it will probably be nothing XD

Aww, thanks sweetheart! <33 I bet I'll call you someday even if I don't feel sad ;D

Haha, well, I can understand that XD Are you into any other yaoi or straight pairings? ;D And yup, they sure are le hotness! 8D

W00t, poitions! :3