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19 August 2008 @ 10:28 pm
Fuck It All  
This just utterly sucks. Fucking bitch.

I have been soo happy the last couple of days. Me and David decided to try to have a relationship again, and it seems to be working wonderfully which made me very happy (even though it was me dumping him before X'D) I had a blast at Närcon and made a lot of wonderful friends. My Crisis Core Cloud cosplay actually WON the Judge's Award!! O__O It can be seen here <3 http://niji-no-kuroi-bara.deviantart.com/ AND I was able to meet up with my wife yami_no_cosmos and we talked and talked, mostly about cosplay of course >3 Such a wonderful person, my wife and babe <3 And then I was able to meet up with Shu-chaaaaan! blueplasticgun and her partner. So cuuuute they are <3333 It was so nice to be able to meet her again after aaaages. Gosh how I miss her ;___; I miss them all so badly even though I just met them last week. We shouldn't be so far away from each other >.< So yeah, have been really happy lately. But of course it wouldn't last >__>;

 I asked my boss about my working hours and stuff and to my pleasant surprise, they all went through! O__O I won't have to work for later than six starting from september 1. I won't work more than max 2 weekends each month AND my two days off each week will be togheter!! I was shoked, but I really need this, so I thanked her a lot even though I usually don't like her very much XD It means a little few working hours, but I can take that XD Plus, I can always apply for more hours if I think I get too little ^^;

BUT, after all that nice stuff, life has to kick you down >_>; THAT FUCKING COW! I've tried, GOD I'VE tried to be nice to that bitch, but noooo! The bitch at work that I've talked about ---- she won't let me be! It was ok before, but now when 9 of 10 people that I like are quitting work, it means I'll have to work with that stupid bitch almost every day! She's not super mean directly, but she's horrible in this sneaky, manipulating way. Gosh how I hate her. The first thing she did when I got back to work after two weeks was to pick and nag on me for nothing. She had no right to, and still she did >__>; I hate myself so much for letting her be like that to me. I wish I could just tell her to fuck off, but I'm too big a wuss for that >.< I hate it. I hate it so FUCKING much! She can destroy a whole day for me with just walking past me. I rarely hate people, but this bitch is something really extra, in a bad way >__>; Why does people like her exist? ;___;

Plus, I studdied the new picture of Oberon today and noticed a detail on his crown that I have nooo idea how I'm supposed to do. Almost made me cry, especially now when everything just feels blargh >__>;

But I got to talk to Yami and Yoru today which made everything better! <3 But now I'm feeling all depressed again >__>; I'm good at acting and actually being happy with and around people, but always when I'm alone I get all self destructive and depressed. It soooo sucks >__>;
Current Location: Devil Summoner
Current Mood: angryangry
Current Music: Throw Me Away - KoRn
Yoru_no_Neko: ChainedReitayoru_no_neko on August 19th, 2008 09:52 pm (UTC)
Show her how noble and mature you are by just walking away from all her scorn with your head held high, instead of falling to her level and letting her get to you. Easier said than done I know, but it's the only advise I have right now, short of killing her ^_~

Eh? What detail? Not the one with the pattern or the rubies?

Now how you feel darling. *hug* Tried to put my computer together tonight and repair my computer mouse. I gave up pretty soon on the mouse, but only recently did I give up on the computer when it crashed. And just when it seemed I had finally installed everything again...so annoying...-_-'
Lea: ZackxCloud embracedemonrose88 on August 19th, 2008 10:05 pm (UTC)
Yeah. I have to be strong! At least I know I can always go and cry to you and David X'D lol

Well, those too, but the most annoying detail is the shape of the 'suface' of the crown >__>; I'll show you, it's easier to explain and gesticulate at the same time X'D But it has to do with the angle of the gold covering the whole crown >__>;

What?! O_O It crashed-- AGAIN? o.O >___> Do you know why? Damn, that sucks >__>; seems they failed at fixing it... again >__> *sigh* Sorry to hear that hun. *comforting hug*
Yoru_no_Neko: KingdomHeartsyoru_no_neko on August 20th, 2008 08:30 am (UTC)
Yeah, I can always lend you a shoulder to cry on ^^ It's not like I don't do the same with you.

Yeah, it crashed again. Was trying to install an audio driver 'cause the sound disappears when installing vista, when it just blergh and a blue screen popped up. And it doesn't go away either!...*sigh*

So now I'm trying to, once again, re-installing xp. Seems like I have to settle for xp until I can buy myself a new computer. But that one is going to have Vista from the start!
nangilima ♠: → r + ashatterlights on August 20th, 2008 10:53 am (UTC)
honeystar ;~~~;
ah. haha. so you & david are together again are you? :D i knew it. 8D but i didnt wanna ask you cause that would have been rude. o: but its nice if you are then. :3 ♥ you're pretty together.

det var kalas att träffa dig igen *-* verkligen. i miss you shitloads and daily life is so boring when youre not a part of it D: i miss so many people also. it sucks. *shares chocolate cookie with you* *thinks eating cookies is crucial when in misery*


just kick that bitch's ass. ahem. or. throw stones at her. or poke her with a sharp object. or just ignore her. you cant hear her over your awesome, remember that! :DD
Demon Soul Dragon: Virus Eclipsedemonsouldragon on August 21st, 2008 07:19 am (UTC)
Hey you! It's been far too long!

Sounds like you had a wonderful time. And your cosplay looks great! Never doubted it would. ^^ Good enough to win an award even!

-__- Sadly...with people like that, all you can do is grit your teeth, bite your tongue, deal with them day in and day out, and hope like hell you don't one day snap and beat the ever loving shit out of them. Then you'll be in bigger trouble than I'm sure you want to be in.
Guess if it helps, you can take solace in the fact that you are a better person than her; you don't need to belittle others and torment them to make yourself feel good. Trust me, I worked for not one, but TWO people like that at the same time. >.<

Now I must go back to my overly busy life...*shudder* >>;; Hopefully I'll get to talk to you again someday. Hopefully soon.
♔ O°o•Yami•o°O ♔: KaibaShowmeloveyami_no_cosmos on August 24th, 2008 11:20 am (UTC)
God lord what a freaking bitch! 0.o
But I know that happy-go-feeling you are talking about. It's allways like that for me, everything goes and planned and the BAM it goes straight to hell.

I've big problems at my work too love. I've even thought about quitting cause of that stupif manager of mine. And I've not gotten a raise in 2 freaking years. Do not wanna be stuck at that place..

And remeber if you need someone to talk to just call me, even if I'm at work just call ok? I call ya back ok?

Oh about cosplay just ask and send me a pic of that detail maybe I've got some ideas? ^^

Love you wife and call me if you need anything! <3

PS: I've started working on my cosplay harness. XD
sorathecrimson on January 16th, 2009 05:06 am (UTC)
<3 <3
Oh my gosh~!
You're sooo beautiful in your costume~!!!